It Pays Off

It Pays Off
I just wanted to write a note of encouragement for anyone reading this page who is going through their own journey with psychosis and anxiety. Hard work pays off.
I first started experiencing the symptoms of psychosis and schizophrenia when I was 14 years old. It took another two years for me to ultimately be diagnosed with schizophrenia. I spent a good chunk of time on the psych ward when the diagnosis was made. I won't lie, those were the hardest, darkest days of my life. Fortunately, I had family and friends around me to support me.

It has definitely been a long journey, full of ups and downs. However, with hard work, I have persevered. I write in my blog different ways to cope with anxiety and how to beat it. By incorporating those coping mechanisms, I have been able to live a productive, happy life. I can proudly say it has been 12 years since I was last hospitalized. I am enjoying each new day.

So, I want to encourage you. I've been where you're at. I know what it's like to be held captive to your mind. I know how dark and depressing things can get. I know what it's like to be alone and confused. HOWEVER, I want you to know that if you work hard enough, and have a positive attitude, you can make leaps and bounds in your recovery.

Take all the advice and tips you can get. Surround yourself with positive, encouraging people. Use your coping skills and try the ones that I have written about on this site. I am a living example that being persistent and literally fighting for your life is the way to recovery. Be strong, the dark times do end! There is a beautiful, happy life out there for you to experience. You just gotta work towards it.

Be strong. Be persistent. Fight to gain your life.


Blog Being Uncomfortable

Being Uncomfortable
Being uncomfortable isn't the end of the world. My dad was telling me yesterday that yes, it sucks being uncomfortable, but the more that you persist and fight whatever is bothering you, the better you will feel, and in time, that uncomfortable feeling goes away.

I already wrote a blog about perseverance. I just wanted to write something similar because I have been trying to apply it to my life recently. I cannot stress enough how important it is to be persistent with anxious feelings. Stand your ground. The other night I had anxious thoughts and Albert was telling me to wipe something down again, even though I did it once already. I decided I was going to challenge those anxious feelings. I’ll admit, it was hell. Thoughts churning in my head telling me what to do. I just kept telling myself that I wasn't going to doubt myself and that once is enough. This went on for about 2 hours. However, something amazing then happened. I was watching TV and realized that I wasn't even thinking about what I was worrying about anymore. It felt so good. I had conquered those thoughts and showed Albert that he has no control of my life. I had been persistent and won.

So, this is more of an update blog on how I am defeating my anxieties, one at a time
Yes, it is going to be uncomfortable, but if you persist, the results are ten times more rewarding.